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Thursday, December 31, 2009

My Grandma Rushton



Oh no.....What should I do? Should I go home to be with you?
do I stay here with my Kids at soccer?
Inside I kept saying if she knew i was there,
Would it make a difference?
Wait not just me but the whole family.
I can tell you for myself, I sure that it would help.

So as I went along that day, I thought what you would say,
"Mary girl, I'm ok."
"but Grandma do you need me there?"
"theres nothing you can do here so stay."
"those wonderful kids want you there, watching them play"
So I said I'll stay, but any change and im on my way.

With the kids scared and worried,
I have to make it ok, they have games to play.
So with my Princess Diadora on the way,
I knew she would make me feel ok.
So as I sat in my chair with my best friend,
She just looked at me with her wonderful eyes,
and she made me feel ok.

So when we went back to our room, i had my phone right there.
I said if anyone calls Im on my way,
So with Sunday here and the last of the games and then
I knew i was on my way to you.
Drop the kids and Eric off and Grab her New secert Box.
write down a few thought and Im on my way

As i enter the waiting room with the family
there, Im scared to see you, but also want to
let you know "I'm here know"

As i enter the ICU, I felt a lump in my throat.
I stopped myself and thought "be strong,dont cry, make her proud."
I though she knows how hard these things are to me. So smile,stand tall, and walk right
in there with no worries at all,
So as I take that long walk down the hall, I see your sisters coming my way.
Oh wait maybe i should just go out.
i couldnt take another step by myself, so they said "Come on Mary, its ok."

As I come to your hospital room, I see machines,tubes, things beeping and all those monitors.
But behind all that I see The most wonderful Face, There you are!
 My Grandma,
She has to be ok!

Unable to talk to us, through all those tubes
I just take a good look at you!
I just took hold of your hand,
You looked at me,
but you looked right into my soul.
and all i could say
"Grandma, your getting better, you will be ok.
You shut your eyes and rest again.
I tell you "I'll be back,and I love you alot."

So a few more days of rest you need
 then maybe you will be able to talk.

So as i enter the room One day,
 those tubes were gone and there you were.
With a little horse voice, to try to talk.
then I said "its ok to rest Grandma I will be right here
and if i have to move I will tell you first"
So as I stand there watching your breathing and
hope you get some rest
I took your hand  into mine,
wait a second i have those hands.

I have her hands, oh my gosh, I have the hands of the most
amazing,loving,kind,caring,strong and wonderful grandma.
Shes cared for children, cooked and baked all day,
And I could say Im so glad to know I have those hands of
that amazing lady. Wow how luck I am.
Knowing that I had my Grandmas hand,
i thought of all shes done.
She mended wounds,
shes hugged all those kids,
shes cuddled them all,
shes kissed alot of
bumps and bruises,
she baked,
she could sew,
she fed all those animals,
she has done so much laundry,
She had made so proud to say
I have my grandmas Hands!
and I very proud to say!

So forever and always I can
always say I have my Grandmas hands!
What a gift from up above.

Love You Grandma
Mary

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