Soul Mate Friend

My Soul Mate Friend

As I stand at the window tonight.

I think about what I've done right?

When i realize theres nothing there,

Then I think if I only knew where i went wrong,

when i Was so strong,,

I think about the one thing i lost,

My soul mate of a friend.

We had so much fun,

then one day it came to an end,

I miss the laughter and words
 we shared,
I miss just being there,

I miss her presence,

to me I must be a problem,

is it that I'm ugly,fat,short,and out of sort,

Did i say something wrong?

Was I not there when I should have been?

Was I not even your Friend?

If its something I said or did?

Theres days thats what I wonder,

then theres day I want to say,

What happen to us anyways?

I'm sorry if its because i stayed away,

I don't want to burden you another day,

I didn't want everyone to have to be,

around Me,

I was scared that you would agree,

with the ones who hated me,

I one thing i have learned is who cares,

I wish I could say I didn't but
in my heart I care all the way.

There are many times in a day that

I want to say,

What Happened?

What went Wrong?

Was I a bad friend because

I wasn't strong?

Did i push everyone away?

All I can say as for today,

If I did you wrong

Oh, I'm so sorry for not staying strong,

I'm so sorry if i pushed you away,

but i didn't want to burden you another day,

I will say that today

I'm scared to try in anyway,

what if you hate me for real,

what if you shed a tear,
then i know I did something
Wrong,

Is it because I'm not that strong?

I will say i always think in the worst way,

So I'll try another day,

As I stand here still looking out the window

into the darkness of night

I feel so empty, alone,
even with the kids asleep,
So inisint and strong,

So if I had my soul mate friend,

back again,
theres so many thing i want to say,
wait....thats ok.
I think she would feel it anyway

Who knows how long i will stand here anyways,

the answers i need are
not out the window in the dark

its somewhere deep in someones heart.

So as i go to bed tonight i will

Ask god why I feel I lost

That One True soul mate friend?

By Mary Keller